Well now what

So I now have this nice new blog....what do I do with it. I have looked at many others. Some I find myself clicking past rather quickly, others I linger a little longer over and some I get completely enthralled in. What makes me stick around and check it out some more, well it helps if it looks pretty. Its nice if the design and layout say something about the poster. Mine....well it was the first one I clicked on. No, I have to admit that's a lie. I clicked on a few and thought this one will have to do. I decided this morning to set about making my blog more personal to me but I have quickly discovered I must have been the class thicky as it all looks Greek to me. I found site which promised me it was oh so easy ...errr yeah right. You didn't mean chockie easy did you. Oh no I had numbers and letters and dots and dashes all over the place. I dutifully did as I was told and downloaded a rather pretty pink template, I pasted the dots and dashes with accompanying numbers into the template box clicked save and waited for my pretty new pink blog to pop up and what did I get....Zip.....I got an error message saying something along the lines of " you dizzy cow...Did you really think you were clever enough to beat me"
So I guess I need to do a little more research before I try and be so adventurous again.....

Chockie goes of to find a nursery guide to blogs and making them pink .....

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

OMG...............I've done it

Well bugger me. I've done it. I still don't know why and I still don't know if anyone will be interested but I have been inspired to write my very first blog.

Now my inspiration has to be my friend (who I would like to call my friend if he didn't mind)
Mr Bertie Bassett. Berties blog is a masterpiece of blogging. I urge anyone who mistakenly come across this to check it out.
Its through reading his blog and the encouragement he has given that I have felt able to write this today. Wether I will actually show it to anyone is a different matter but 1 step at a time eh!

Now I have decided to do a blog I have suddenly found myself with very little to say. I pride myself on having an opinion on everything but when I'm under pressure to deliver I'm unable to. I feel rather inadequate. All I know about is what I do. I'm a mummy.....To 3 beautiful buttons. I do school runs, make lunches and cook dinner, clean up and wash clothes ......Day in day out and for the most part it is very satisfying. what's interesting about that???

See I could probably write a million things now but wont......as I have sat and pondered over this for a while now and have decided everything I had to say wasn't interesting enough.

I have decided to use this space to come to whenever I want to say something but think I shouldn't. Why shouldn't I....I ask myself. What stops me from putting myself out there and actually saying something that might reveal a little bit about who I am. Something that might show me to think differently to the majority, and why does that scare me. The fear of ridicule and non acceptance I suppose. don't we all want to belong somewhere and be accepted.
When do we decide its ok to be who we are. I honestly thought I would be there by now.


So before I ramble on into non existence I'm going to leave it there. Determined to come back tomorrow with something else to say.